Thursday, June 11, 2009

Phrase Two I'm Showing Up

I closed the chapter on phrase One effective Sunday evening with a successful 2 day show in Woodland Park. I had met one of the founders of "Satiama" an online international gallery as well as a place of spirituality enhancing Life's Journey. Wow this a gift from Spirit as I was just asking for someone to take over my print section and it happened on Saturday afternoon as Karen one of the founders was looking for another artist. She shared her story of her passion she and her sister had and the beginning of Satiama, the feeling was incredible words only discount it.

Although I had an unexpected visit to an ENT Specialist last Wednesday due to a discrepancy showing up in my left nasal pharnyx on the PETS/CT Scan all is well and I was given the go to proceed with chemo.
Phrase 2 began Monday morning with the Port surgery and another biospy for the clinical study. Once again I was so grateful for the incredible care and attention to detail I experienced before during and after surgery. I thanked Dr. P. for the successful surgery prior to me going under since I probably would not see her again until my follow up appointment which is scheduled for next Tuesday.

Yesterday morning I had a bit of a scare with my body going into shock and convulsing as I lay on my bedroom floor. A big wake up call for healing being my main focus and my body getting use to the Port a foreign object.The stress of cancer has a way of doing that and I did not realize my body was under the amount of stress, so my body spoke to me loud and clear. The paramedics came and my vitals were stable enough,since the last place I wanted to be was the hospital. Again it is
big sign of all the love and support I have in every moment.

Today is much better as I am really taking it easy for me hmmmmmm. Chemo treatments begin tomorrow for 24 weeks with my last treatment on November 6Th, 2009 it is already marked on my calender focusing on the end result and honoring the process even when I am not sure what that means I just show up and say yes to healing. The good news it will be just over 5 months how cool is that and a little down time before my surgery. So if I have not responded to you in my usual manner with emails posts, phones calls now you know the reason. I feel much better having another set of steps a game plan for phrase two and will continue to shine in my melt down flaming moments.

This is quite an education process to say the least from knowing the exact supplement to take and not to take during chemo. Alot of my supplements I was taking no longer apply and defeat the purpose of chemo so new supplements and vitamin's are being implemented. Yikes this was big for me in adjusting as I found myself becoming angry that there is something really wrong with this process however; it is the process I have chosen along with my guidance team in hopes that I can help assist and make difference for the women of the future.

My evenings with Marilyn continue we talk every night and it is such a gift. Monday when I arrived home from the hospital I had a package from Marilyn. A beautiful oriental box red and black I loved it already. Inside the box was a 2x2 metal of St. Christopher which was Marilyn's mother when she was alive OMG the tears rolled downed my face what an honor received such a gift. She also sent a prayer wheel necklace it is absolutely Divine I was sure what it was exactly as I have never seen anything like it before, stashed on the side was a crisp hundred bill.

OK now it's time to share my phrase 1 art with you enjoy they will be available soon in Giclees limited edition.

Alien Swirl
New technique for me layering with tape was the the second process after I painted the surface. I got the idea one morning while I was doing my legs lifts you never know when inspiration is going ring your door bell.

Light Busters
Now at first sight you may or not see all that is going on. Let's just say my galactic family decided to make their presence known.

Monet's Waterfall
That's the feeling it gave me and still does today when ever I look at it. Right after this I painted my 4Th and final painting until the next session.

As I completed this painting I felt so serene and knew all is well. Many layers, many perceptions, many discoveries along the way. I hope you enjoyed my visions of how life can truly be when we choose to turn and look within. Can you see the Statue of Liberty her face is on the top right hand side about 2.5 inches in

I also received many other physical gifts from a breast cancer Angel Pin from my friend Janiece, to an organic beef tip stew along with many other organic goodies from my friends Valerie and Kevin, to a delicious dinner from my sister Paula and Sonny after the show on Saturday night and oh yes lots of laughs, to my mother showing up on Friday with delicious blue berries and being with me on Monday, to my Friend Marie Rose dedicating her class to me with all proceeds going into my fund.
Cancer is teaching me to ask for help and receive it graciously it is not something I have done in the past it is humbling. I have cried more tears of joy with all the support and people offering to help and just show up. Spirit continues to show me tid bits of the larger picture and why I chose to sign up for this.

So in closing this post if you are on the same journey please send me an email and together we shall continue to shine. If I can give you information about phrase one with all the testing scans etc. please let me know
I Love You
Smiles and Sunshine



  1. I loved your pictures, Monet and Matisse have always been my favorite masters. Just want you to know that my prayers are with you. How scary for you, this is my first time visiting your blog. It's great to get to know you. You seem like such a caring soul.
    Rose Lewis

  2. Thanks Rose I really appreciate you stopping by and taking the time to comment
    Have a super great inspiring day
    All is well in this moment

  3. Lisa;
    It always amazes me that when you are on my mind, all I have to do is come here.
    My arms are wrapped around you sharing love, FAITH, and gratitude.
    Thank you for your courage, you are truly a remarkable woman!
    Victorian Tea-Always


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